-today-
i mark today as the day my war started,
the day everyone saw me as a threat,
to their friendships,
their jobs,
their money,
their way of life.

and i mark today,
as the day my life,
my normal life anyway,
ended,
and i was left with this sinking feeling,
of loss,
of pain,
of sadness,
and bitter anger.

of the burning hatred,
that i hold to,
and pray for the death of my tormentor,
and pray that i may live in peace.

and,
i also mark today,
as the end,
of my friendship,
with a group of people i called my friends,
but were nothing but spineless followers.

so,
today i mark the day my spirit died,
and only the other lived,
the other is me,
and i care not for the people of the world,
it's done me no good.

so I'll just post it here.

edit:
I'm ether very stupid or think everyone enjoys makes things hard for me.

yes i uploaded an image, only problem was this thing that kept popping up,
it told me to cut down my picture and make it square, or so i was lead to believe,
it turns out it was really a "thumbnail" thing.

now i feel VERY stupid, and slightly of paranoid about getting bitten by a mosquito,
which i think is in my room, and i do not want to go to sleep, lest i get bit,
but I'm also VERY tired, hell, i think I'll sleep in the car, GOOD NIGHT!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH, THE GRIM REAPER!

so, i was sitting in my room thinking.
THEN IT CAME TO ME!
WHY NOT WHERE SHORT SHORTS?!

so i did.

then i thought.
what about that studded belt?

so i did.

then my silver jewelry and black lipstick!

then....i went down the street to the milk bar, whereing high-heeled plantform black shoes.

pretty much, i dressed goth.

help, me, school starts soon, like.........THIS WEDNESDAY?!
*faint*
okay,
rope, razer, cheap beer, bleach......what else do i need?
hmmm....glue, rubber, bug spray, spray paint......and.......?

WELL? ANY IDEAS?!

........coat hanger, steal fan, power point....

ah, yes, sad music.......but where do i get that?
youtube'll do 4 now..........

I HATE SHAVING!
BECAUSE I'M VERY BAD AT IT,
THIS IS WHY MY LEGS HAVE SO MANY SCARS!
AND I'M FED UP WITH THE JERKS AT SCHOOL WHO SAY I SHOULD SHAVE!
SO, I DON'T DAMN CARE!
I'M GOING NATURAL AND LETTING IT GROW BECAUSE I CAN'T BE BOTHERED!
AND IT'S A USELESS WASTE OF MY BLOOD,
WHICH ONLY ENDS UP ON THE FLOOR!

go die bastards.

(the image is something i want BAD!)
Rust Blaster

i think i need nail-polish and nail-hardener,
BECAUSE I KEEP BREAKING MY NAILS!
i can't go ANYWHERE without chipping, cracking, snapping, or breaking them!
it's SOOOOOOOOOOOO unfair!

i mean, i went into my garden, and not five minutes in there, I BROKE MY NAIL OFF!
my right hand's starting to look............TAME!
I'VE ONLY GOT TWO OTHER LONG NAILS ON THERE!
MY MIDDLE FINGER AND END FINGER!

AND THEY'RE ALL DIRTY, ALL OF THEM!

(if i can find my camera, I'll post a picture!)

I REMEMBERED!
WHO WANTS THEIR PICTURE DEFACED?!
........anyone?
hmm..........YOU THERE! SEE YOUR VERY OWN DEFACED PICTURE!
HOW DO YOU FEEL?!

............

THAT'S GREAT!

-R

sing, dance, drink and get sh*t faced!

true, i didn't get drunk, but i DID dance and scream to the radio, and got revenge on the neighbors,
who have annoying christmas lights and a baby that wont shut up!

then was scared by how many mosquitoes there was in my room, and set about killing them all!
slept in and took a shower to get the bug spray off me,

thank you thank you!

BEST NEW YEARS NIGHT EVER!

-one week ago-
I'VE GOT BRAND NEW SHORT SHORTS!
(i has nice ass, or so I've been told >.<)

I'VE ALREADY MADE MYSELF SICK ON CHOCOLATE!
PLAYED WITH MY BRAND NEW MAKEUP!
AND FALLEN OVER IN A FIT OF GIGGLES!

.........pretty much, i got no new teddy bear! WAHHHHHHHHH!
........SANTA MUST PAY!

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gifted but twisted

and i feel SICK! SICK! SICK! SICK!
why?
'CAUSE I'VE GOT TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!
.......and i don't wanna. T-T

and today was my friend's B-day, and i missed it.
all i could do was sit here at my comp and send her a CS "pet".
and i don't even remember how many sandwiches I've had!

oh, i found frozen blueberries in the freezer, only god knows how long they've been in THERE!
....but they were still yummy. *blush*
NOW MY LIPS AND MOUTH ARE PURPLE!

AND i think my comps got a bug from CS!

so, all I've done today,
-read Manga online
-eat
-played games, online
-drank water.....um, maybe a little dry wine...(don't tell mum)
-watch stuff on youtube
-and pat my cats

in short, i have not set foot outside all day, or yesterday.

but I've read manga, so i am happy. (in theory)

oh yeah, i haven't worn a bra for two days, cool, right?! ^_^